fett on 20/9/2009 at 17:42
Thanks old torro, but there's nothing hormonal about my treatment. I take a calcium channel beta blocker called Verapamil, and an arrhythmia suppression drug called Norpace, and I can't be without either one at this point without fatal consequences.
While my symptoms are exactly as you describe in your post, I don't have the option of quitting the drug. It's obvious (to me at least) that some chemical in the new version of the Norpace I started four months ago is messing with my hormonal balance, thus affecting my emotional well-being. I definitely have good days and bad days, but I feel twice removed from the person I used to be - first when I started on heart meds 11 years ago, and now recently when I had to switch to this new version. I've coped really well most of that time with my limitations, and have poured myself into pursuits that are realistic within those limitations. I don't think I'll ever get parts of my personality back like you speak of. I was okay with that until a few weeks ago when I noticed how depressed and negative I've become about everything. I lost alot when I was diagnosed, but at least I still had my brain. I highly value being able to read and learn new things but I barely have the attention span for a 55 minute TV show anymore (it's gonna suck when I finish The Wire). I've got to get my focus back, at least, and quit being so doom and gloom because it's got to be affecting my family.
SubJeff on 20/9/2009 at 18:22
Tbh honest its incredibly unlikely that the non-drug components of the medication are affecting you hormones. Formulation is usually with standard components unless the drug has some weird chemical interactions with the standard set of alternatives (like propofol for example). Its not impossible though. Its certainly worth telling your doc as this could be an unrecorded/unrecognised side effect. He may need to yellow card (or whatever it is you have over there) the FDA.
Queue on 20/9/2009 at 23:55
Quote Posted by dethtoll
Jay is kinda dumb anyway. I haven't taken him seriously since he started spouting bullshit about how video games should be taxed/censored because he doesn't think they qualify as a possible outlet of creative expression.
They don't.
SubJeff on 21/9/2009 at 00:01
Oh quit your trolling you despicable bore.
Queue on 21/9/2009 at 00:06
I was just trying to make dethtoll feel important :(
june gloom on 21/9/2009 at 00:32
I don't need some 2-bit troll to make me feel important.
Queue on 21/9/2009 at 00:34
See. It worked.
Scots Taffer on 21/9/2009 at 01:07
Hopefully any other spamfucks who shit on threads will get the same treatment as CCCToad if his post got nuked, elsewise he might've reclaimed a modicum of self-awareness and deleted it.
What the fuck is with some of you people these days?
I mean, threadshitting worthless threads is perfectly acceptable but derailing well meant threads for decent posters is just fucked up and you're a bunch of dickless faggots for making me say this.
And fett, I don't have much to say that can be of any assistance except for keep your head up and work through it. I have only had a very brief flirtation with depression over a year ago when I was in a miserable soul-sucking job situation but I found that support from loved ones, distraction through pleasurable pursuits and keeping a positive mindframe are the key things - plus make sure if there are bad habits contributing to your mood then shitcan them and break those routines.
Stitch on 21/9/2009 at 01:40
fett I've got no advice other than to say you rock my world mang and I hope you can get back on track soon.
Much love <3
Edit: also, what my buddy directly above said
Chade on 21/9/2009 at 01:54
Good luck Fett. You rock. And never ever decide you can't talk to your wife about shit like that, silly man.
