Namdrol on 19/9/2009 at 13:12
Fett,
I sort of know what you're going through (but on a far milder level). We've been brought up to believe that we've got to be tough, strong and support everyone around us.
(Get on your knees and kiss my stinking ring Marion Robert Morrison).
I live with a chronic pain condition and some days just getting out of bed is hell itself.
Outside support is essential, but then I hate feeling like a burden.
And I get stuck in chronic insomnia and deep sadness.
You should sit your wife down and show her this thread.
Stay strong.
And yea, co-proxamol, except now they give either tramadol or high strength co-codamol which don't kill you as easily but have a far stronger addiction potential and get you off your head in a fucked up way. (Personal experience btw)
oudeis on 19/9/2009 at 15:41
Jesus Christ- here I was bemoaning my afflictions, feeling good about feeling sorry for myself, then Fett, Namdrol, 242 and others have to chime in about what they endure. THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR TAKING AWAY MY JUSTIFICATION FOR SELF-PITY AND FAILURE, YOU BASTARDS!
In all seriousness, you all have my sympathy and my respect for accomplishing any damned thing in life at all, especially you, Fett. As far as being 'emo', if God didn't want us to bitch, he wouldn't have created internet forums. Post away!
Shayde on 19/9/2009 at 18:35
I'm so sorry you are going through this fett. :(
I'm glad you spoke to your wife. It's not bitching, it's partnership and I can assure you she'd rather hear about your feelings than have a moping cloud of doom around the house. At least this way she can help you and equally important, feel like she's helping you.
I'll also add to Duckies hug.
Smishes Fett.
fett on 19/9/2009 at 20:52
"Moping cloud of doom" - that's a spot on description. Feeling a bit better today despite the rain and clouds outside. I'm almost positive this is directly related to my meds because on the days I'm feeling better physically, I'm a much happier person. That sounds like a no-brainer, but when you're in the middle of it, it's all muddled.
jay pettitt on 19/9/2009 at 21:58
I find running miles and miles first thing in the morning a very good thing, though I don't have a heart condition. Also, not talking to the missus is just wtf - how silly was that?
SubJeff on 19/9/2009 at 22:15
top quality advice for people with heart conditions that make them tired when tying shoelaces itt
fett on 20/9/2009 at 02:13
I've suspected all along that Jay WANTS ME DEAD.
gunsmoke on 20/9/2009 at 02:31
Quote Posted by YuSeF
Perhaps you should see a therapist if you feel depressed. Maybe it is the medicine and maybe it is not.
This
june gloom on 20/9/2009 at 06:42
Jay is kinda dumb anyway. I haven't taken him seriously since he started spouting bullshit about how video games should be taxed/censored because he doesn't think they qualify as a possible outlet of creative expression.
old toro on 20/9/2009 at 16:10
I want to throw some advice, as I'm myself suffering from a chronic condition.
My personal experience is this: I've took a hormonal treatment for over 2 years, some vaccine to ameliorate allergy. During the first year or so, I felt very active and good despite an increased addiction towards the drug. Then suddenly I started to have memory loses, concentration problems, depression and non-existent libido. It was so difficult that it affected my relationship(s) at home and at work. The obvious choice was that I completely stopped taking any medication. What happened next was a long period of withdrawal and problems that are common to drug addiction. It took me over an year to reach a decent level of mental and physical sanity and I'm not sure if is over yet.
My conclusion is that I will never, ever try another hormonal treatment. This type of treatment is messing with the natural proportions of hormones that are produced in your body. When you start the treatment you basically change forever some constants of your being and is possible to never get them back. This is very dangerous and I'm not talking theoretically, I feel the aftermath on my own life.
My opinion is that you are taking definitely a hormonal treatment and this is just wrong if the hormonal treatment is not critical for your life. If you can remove the hormonal part from your treatment, then gradually you will be able to take your life back. It's actually a drug addiction fight and you may survive it or not. Talk with you wife and be realistic, you will probably feel like shit for probably a year or so, than you will suddenly find that you feel better with yourself and the life will start to have 'taste' again. Or you could go back on the old treatment and delay the aftermath for a age when you will certainly will not be able to handle it. This is my opinion.
And by the way, the emo part is funny, but you are certainly not an emo guy. And this is my first post here, hope it helps.
