Enchantermon on 11/12/2009 at 03:57
Quote Posted by CCCToad
One of my friends took a whole semester to fill up a gallon jug with dipspit. At the end of the school year, they took the whole thing and put it in another guy's car, with the cap off.
Oh.....
gross. :eww:
Tocky on 11/12/2009 at 03:59
I am dismembering you Koyla. In my mind I am feeding you to pigs. Two. Two is all I need. Two a night. Is that so bad? Two makes the screaming shutup. I'm not going to make it am I? I've seen my blood pressure climb. Every male in my line dies of it. It is quick. No gasping for breath, just a sudden facial flushing and the lack of ability to communicate. A desperate struggle to say something important then an acceptance. Not a bad way to go but will my insurance pay when I said I did not smoke? Mostly I don't. Two. Tonight none. Tomorrow? What would they say about getting shitfaced to avoid it? The alcohol is not strong enough.
frozenman on 11/12/2009 at 04:08
Keep it up Tocky! Just eat a bunch of shit to kill it now, exercise tomorrow!
Kolya on 11/12/2009 at 04:11
Quote Posted by Tocky
I am dismembering you Koyla. In my mind I am feeding you to pigs.
Good. You'll need that anger.
Tocky on 11/12/2009 at 04:42
Tonight. NO promise for tomorrow. Nothing is as strong as smoke. I will sleep. I won't make it. I know. What difference does it make what I die of? Only two. Sometimes four. I don't want my wife to have a reason to start back. She might die gasping like a fish. I will just pop full iris and last a short while. Oh jesus I think all that is left is that awful absente and some skye scotch. Is there any worse taste than liccorice or mercurochrome? A lovely floaty feel to wormwoood but nothing compared to niccotine for just easing the shutthehellup. I can't imagine heroin to be worse.
Scots Taffer on 11/12/2009 at 04:47
How many years have you been smoking, Tocky?
fett on 11/12/2009 at 05:11
Yes, yes...USE your anger, Tocky. Feel it flowing through you. Let it make you strong!!!!
Renzatic on 11/12/2009 at 05:28
If you haven't done so already, try to get away from your normal routine in between your bouts of Kolya chumming rage anger. Do you usually have a cigarette in front of the computer after eating dinner? Well...don't. All you're doing is forcing yourself to keep up a constant battle against your lust for nicotine in an enviroment that's making you crave it even moreso. Go to bed instead. Or go out for a jog. Or write a damn book. Just don't do what you normally do.
Tocky on 11/12/2009 at 05:28
Over thirty Scots. Never during the day but after five I relax with it. I even crap right after the first one. Like pressing a button. I know a few are statisticly no that bad but blood pressure is creeping up to 140 0ver 90 most days and I know what that means. Not now but soon. Salt is like pushing a button for red face. I don't know if the few is worth the stress of quitting or not. I fucking hate growing old, I never expected or lived as if I would do it anyway but I have barely enough decency in me to want to be a good example to my grandkids and to be there for my wife in her time you know? I have come to understand that being there for her going is more important than someone being there for mine. Morbid shit. Hopefully a long way off but some things give you intinmations. All we get is slight whispers until it is ohfuck territory right? Anyway this shit is hard, real hard, maybe too hard for the small amount I depend on to just get by. How do you gauge the right time to go exactly? If you knew then it would be spine stiffening time but you don't. Life is pretty fun but ultimately pretty fucked.
