Kolya on 15/9/2017 at 06:22

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I'm sorry that you have to live through this, montag. And I hope you get the help.

montag on 17/9/2017 at 03:29

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Thanks, Kolya and Vasquez! I got the feeling that, although she couldn't say as much, that the representative who saw us thinks I'm going to qualify for the program. Also this program is local to my county, and is funded by property taxes. I have another meeting on Monday to see someone from a federal program called Passport, which will (if we qualify) effectively cover my little monster with Medicaid. Because Passport is a federal program with a much larger budget, the amount of respite I may receive might go up to as much as 21 hours a week. We shall see! I have to admit to you all, I'm something of a hard-ass, but just thinking of 6 worry-free hours a week is making me tear up a little. The last time I squirted a few was over 20 years ago, when the girl I still think of as my "girlfriend" passed away after an auto accident. But just to give y'all an idea of how twisted I am, when the Pegster was smudging her poop around on the floor, it was all I could do to not die laughing. Her OCD is so strong that while I am telling her to ignore the mess on the floor and just work on cleaning her bum, she is ineffectually pushing a turd around with her fingers and the washcloths I am handing to her. It's funny, but I am more fond of her now than any other time in the past. 10, or even 5 years ago, I you had asked me to take care of her the way I do now, I would have told you to go fuck yourself, now I realize that she has always had some pretty serious mental problems that she never could control. I remember as a child, her father saying something along the lines of "your father made a bad deal when he married your mother, she may be beautiful, (and she was) but there is something very wrong with her." It's probable than if she had been born a few decades after the 30's, that she my have received treatment that could have helped her, but I get it now that she has always been off, so I just deal with her as she is today.



No worries, Vasquez, my biggest hope is that she just passes away in her sleep one night. I have her set up in my master-bedroom with all her old furniture, most of it 50 plus years old, and my living room is almost a total recreation of her old one,(including the 27 year old sofa that no one was ever allowed to sit on) so everything is kinda familiar to her. To me, just passing away in the night surrounded by stuff you have known for decades would be the best way to go. Of course, that being said, I still have quite a few pillows, and I'm not afraid to use them!

P.S. the jury is still out on how close I am to being broken beyond repair

Pyrian on 26/9/2017 at 07:18

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Get hard flooring. Tile, laminate, wood, whatever. You'll thank me when a stomach bug sweeps through your family and they're vomiting everywhere and your wife can't even approach any of the vomit without also vomiting.

montag on 29/9/2017 at 03:22

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Forgot where I left off, but here's the latest: I have been approved for respite care through the local program. (called E.S.P. - Elderly Services Program)
On Tuesday, a very nice girl came to the house for three hours, she played lifeguard for the little monster while she took a bath, and then hung out with her. Tomorrow another girl will come for 3 hours and do the same thing. So at the very least, I will have 6 hours a week to do my own thing, which is a big relief. On Monday, I have a phone interview with the federal program (called Passport) if I can get her into that program, she will get up to 21 hours a week of care. That would be great, but more importantly, if she qualifies for Passport, when the time comes (if it does) I would be able to place her in a really nice long-term care facility. This is a place that she has spent time rehabing from her previous injury's, and it is very nice, but very expensive. I've got my fingers crossed, but even if that falls through I have the 6 hours of help each week, which is still huge.
Also, I have hardwood flooring throughout the house, but it is covered with carpet now. Easy enough to pull it all up! As for nose clips, I have clothespins, which should work just as well. Also, I still have the spare pillows. Thanks for the support, you douchlers!

Harvester on 29/9/2017 at 11:45

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That's good news, Montag! I hope everything works about and that she gets the care she needs, with you getting some more time for yourself.

Yesterday I got my diploma (I already heard I passed the education several months ago). On my final grade list I was happy to see that the programming teacher awarded me with 10's (like A+, the highest grade) for all the programming parts of the education.

Soon I'll have a testing day at my boss' other company. There's a testing assignment (it's secret, I won't know what it is until that day, so I have no idea as to the difficulty) which I can spend one full day on. If I do a good job, I can become a programmer there for several days a week. Eventually, I'd like to program for 4 days a week. But I think I'll have to start out at 2, and spend the other 2 at my current job until they can find a replacement writer for me. But first I have to nail the assignment... I'm quite nervous about it... I mean not all is lost if I don't do a good job, but then the whole path to becoming a programmer will be delayed.