TheNightTerror on 25/1/2007 at 09:35
You'll have to excuse this post, but several flasks of brandy (plus a nice big, tall glass after I couldn't pour anything into the flask anymore) have destroyed my resolve to not post a whiny, bitching, rant thread tonight.
I'm leaving for a sleep clinic in the morning, and I'm freaked right the fuck out. I've had sleeping problems my entire life, but since I was 13, they started getting way worse. My insomnia got so bad that I couldn't function on the same schedule as everyone else, which fucked up everything.
Over two years ago I thought I got lucky, and was rushed into a sleep clinic, which made me get my hopes way up and think they were actually going to help me. The doctor there turned out to be a real asshole, and decided that taking Gravol was the source of my life long sleep problems, told me to cure myself before I tried to come back for actual testing, and sent me away borderline suicidal I was so upset.
Now, two years later, I'm finally off Gravol, quite a feat considering I used to take 3 long lasting and 4 short lasting before I could even think about sleeping, but I'm still relying on a delightful cocktail of pills to fall asleep. I've gotten way worse, I can barely function and think, but I finally saw a doctor who told me there were other in-province sleep clinics I could go to. I got another referral, they rushed me in again, and now I'm going to be leaving town to get there first thing in tomorrow morning.
This time, I have an appointment to meet with the sleep clinic doctor, and then in the evening I come back for the tests, so they're finally going to accept that I'm not faking the problems, I hope. I'm so scared that I'm going to fuck up somehow and they're not going to get useful test results, and that I'll never get back into another sleep clinic if something goes wrong. It's fucking stupid, I'm such a head case that they're bound to find a short circuit somewhere in my head when they wire me up, but considering how much is hanging on this appointment, I think I'm allowed to be scared shitless about fucking it up.
Sorry for wasting your time with the purposeless piece of shit thread. I should probably lay off the brandy, go back to snuggling with my kitten and maybe get some sleep now. :sweat:
Pyrian on 25/1/2007 at 09:50
:( Good luck, sweetie. Try to relax. I wish you the best.
Fafhrd on 25/1/2007 at 10:30
Hopefully you haven't taken any of your "delightful cocktail" recently enough for any of it to still be in your system, because it'll likely skew your results.
Scots Taffer on 25/1/2007 at 11:11
Summoning Grey to Sleep Deprivation Thread #3121785
Matthew on 25/1/2007 at 11:25
All the very best of luck, T.
Nameless Voice on 25/1/2007 at 12:01
I wish you the best of luck, TNT!
Hopefully it works out well for you.
fett on 25/1/2007 at 15:49
Wow -I hope everything goes well. I have Restless Leg Syndrome from time to time and not sleeping is the worst kind of torture - it really does fuck up your entire life. Just relax and be honest with the people there about what's going on. If the place is any good, they realize that sleep extended sleep deprivation can cause serious psychological trauma so maybe they'll be able to work with you.
Dia on 25/1/2007 at 16:32
May God stand between you and harm in all the dark places you must walk.
I really hope all goes well and things start getting better for you TNT.
doctorfrog on 25/1/2007 at 16:34
I've been fighting minor sleeping issues my whole life. I've managed it through developing relaxing routines and avoiding any kind of mind or sleep-altering drugs, though I'm still working on removing caffeine and alcohol. Bad stuff to a sensitive system. It also sucks that night time is typically the best time to be awake.
I greatly sympathize, and wish you the best.
Also, doctors are horrible.
