BrokenArts on 6/1/2010 at 17:25
Coming to terms with things is half the battle. Sounds like you are already on your way. Speaking up, helps, DO IT. Recognizing the short comings, find your way through this, you will.
Realize that you want more for yourself, in the end, your mom would of wanted that for you, she loved you in her own way. Best of luck man, we are here for you.
As for the Antiques, you could store them for a while when you are ready to deal with them. Don't sell them at a garage sale for dirt cheap, some of it yeah maybe. Some of that stuff might actually be worth something. Keep things that you really like, if there is anything. You could get an appraiser, through the ISA, *International Society of Appraisers.* Someone could come out and tell you, for a fee, how much the stuff is worth. Might be something to consider. You could have an estate sale eventually. Just some thoughts.
Tocky on 7/1/2010 at 04:42
Over the years as you grow older you will have many epiphanies about her and understand her better. I know without a doubt that she would not want you to feel guilty. She may have been a bit indulgent about her own situation but you admit she only cared for others. Honor that. She cared for you and would want you to waste time and effort on guilt least of all. That's just a waste of life. I don't care how badly she treated herself she wanted you to have the best of life. That's just natural.
I dread the day I have to let go of mine. I know it may be soon but I don't want to admit it. It will make me feel alone I know. Such a strong and gentle force gone. Moms love like no other.
Condolences man.
