addink on 3/1/2010 at 17:13
:(
frozenman on 3/1/2010 at 17:55
Thank you everyone for your thoughts- it really does help just to have posted this- I'm about to go back to work on Monday and I'll be faced with dozens of "How was your break??"s and I don't even know how to answer that.
Quote Posted by Briareos H
At some point or another you're gonna feel guilty for everything. Not going to see her at her place in 6 years, not forcing her out of being an alcoholic, etc.
There's really no earthly way to force an alcoholic out of being an alcoholic. I'd tried everything I, as a 15-18 year old knew how, but that mostly just involved screaming at her and holing up in my room. Ultimately it has to come from within. As far as I know she managed to get sober for months at a time, at one point even celebrating a 2-year sobriety milestone at AA. However, since she was all alone there is really truly no way to know if this was the case. I suspect by the placement of vodka bottles and wine boxes amongst the topography of trash in her condo that she started up several months ago, at a time that roughly coincided with me moving to Boston. I'm trying to avoid guilt, I know it's not my
fault but it's a trend I can't ignore.
I have mixed feelings when people say I'm being 'strong.' There isn't really any other way I could have been...and it seems so easy to mistake being heartless and cold (see what I did there) for being strong.
I don't know. Thanks again for all the replies.
BrokenArts on 3/1/2010 at 18:10
I'm so sorry frozeman. R.I.P. :(
Enchantermon on 3/1/2010 at 18:28
Again, my deepest sympathies. :(
Chade on 3/1/2010 at 21:14
Fuck :(
ignatios on 3/1/2010 at 21:25
My condolences froz.
massimilianogoi on 3/1/2010 at 21:30
I could not read more than three rows. My eyes are full of tears.
Condolences, frozenman.
thefonz on 3/1/2010 at 21:40
Hope you are making it through this as well as you can Froz, I can't imagine the maelstrom of emotion you must be going through.
All the best.
Martin Karne on 3/1/2010 at 22:03
Oh man this is a bad start for this year, my deepest sympathies and condolences.
:nono:
Briareos H on 3/1/2010 at 22:07
Quote Posted by frozenman
Ultimately it has to come from within.
Yes.
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I'm trying to avoid guilt, I know it's not my
fault but it's a trend I can't ignore.
You obviously have the ability to look at events with enough hindsight to understand how you should address your feelings :cool: that's what people see from afar when they say you are 'strong'.
Now the only thing is to feel shitty for a while. Talk a lot when you meet people who can listen, take it out and don't hesitate to seek easy comfort for as long as you need it. Oh and turn the motherfucking stereo up :D, music has ten times* the healing power as an acquaintance. I don't think there's anything else to do.
* More like 10,000
