pukey brunster on 13/11/2024 at 00:34
Hey Fen,
I'm probably one of your biggest fans.. er
'Fens'. Me too, I haven't always been nice, or understood, or liked. I'm glad I came back to visit this community after a long, long break, but it also feels foreign when you come back from a vacation.
I'm glad to hear you're being true to yourself and going directions, whichever direction. Confusing and scary, but you are not so different. I have social skills which has helped me in business, but I will be the first to tell you most people I work with are fake assholes. And look at some of the people here.. zero social skills with questionable talent, and yet some are congratulated.
Nobody is paraperfect.. or parabrainiac or whatever you said lol. Look at my country for instance, most of these fools actually voted for Trump. Don't wish to be normal is what I'm saying. Most people pretend to be normal and are enormously unhappy. A lot of them, usually the uncreative ones, hide behind cynicsim. Truth is we're all on the spectrum, if we're being honest. Let's just be real. We are you, Fen, which is why we like you.
Long winded, I know, but just sayin.. let your creative voice go where it wants.
Lord Taffer on 13/11/2024 at 08:40
Hope all the best to you and try to find your way, whatever it is! I think nobody is really 'normal', everyone has some habits that might seem odd or crazy to some other person. So, all the strength to thee!
nicked on 13/11/2024 at 09:14
Anyone who claims to be normal is definitely hiding some skeletons. :laff:
Sorry to hear you are having such a hard time Fen; as others have said, you're a welcome and valuable member of this community, and I for one have enjoyed a huge number of your videos. I wouldn't claim to be able to relate to your situation per se, but I know what it's like to feel directionless and depressed. Only way I get through those times is to remind myself I'm just an ordinary person who has good days and bad days, and try to focus on the little happinesses. I sincerely hope you are able to find meaning and happiness again. Take care of yourself.
zajazd on 13/11/2024 at 15:09
I am picky when it comes to Let's plays and honestly I found your style/humor annoying. When I had more free time I wanted to try doing let's plays myself but I quickly realized that I can't do it because I'm introverted and I have nothing to say and have no desire to act, so you are more normal than me and many other people in at least one regard :p
OldPoorman on 13/11/2024 at 22:55
Always imagined Jeff Goldblum when I watched your videos for some reason. Life sucks, you gotta do what makes you happy. Good Luck and thanks.
Stingm on 14/11/2024 at 03:35
Fen you are a very important member of this community. I use angeloader and love your lets plays. We all have our issues and I wish you the best. I hope and pray all goes well for you.
nightchild on 14/11/2024 at 13:44
Good thing ticky started this thread, as I from time to time wonder about fen's wellbeing.
I am also a frequent visitor of your channel (even now as I write). In fact, when I am not playing fms, I watch your videos. Even for hints 😏
I personally can't watch silent let's plays....
Your way of subconscious dealing (or anyway, trying to deal) with personal matters through your channel all these years, is admirable and honest. I really hope that it also helped you, to some extent at least. But, I do know that you have helped me through difficult days, viruses lock downs, offering me fanny or serious moments, playing for me the missions that I was occasionally unable to play myself.
Have in mind that you are much more than your voice. Must be painful to think that you may be loosing the thing that made you feel proud and that opens doors of opportunities, still, the most interesting missions are not the linear ones. Through your channel I have witnessed a thinking person's constant evolution and betterment and I sincerely wish that you find plenty of strength and new opportunities to keep going.
And, really, thanks for all the babbling!!!
RickMcKnight on 16/11/2024 at 20:43
A retirement has always been a bitter-sweet event, and Fen, you have impacted the community in a grand way! You will be missed by many, I'm sure! Thank you for your great contribution in the way you entertained us for many glorious years. And you were an amazing contributor in our Titanium events back in 2021, your TY videos will always be a great source of joy for all who love the game and your unique style in delivering it. You've created AngelLoader and many will be using it for decades to come! I know sometimes, life throws challenges our way and we can only do what our inner consciousness tells us, and you do well to take care of yourself, you have our full support, I for one, will always be grateful to have known you in our interactions on my LIVE streams. :thumb:
JonesCrusher on 16/11/2024 at 22:38
Ooohh...I am gutted...but understand...you were always my go-to for finding out how to proceed in a fan mission and I will miss you very much....you always made it fun and I always wanted to meet you one day.I hope you find the peace you deserve and many thanks for all the uploads you did and spent a lot of time on for others....Much fondness to you x
Heather
R Soul on 17/11/2024 at 15:33
Hi Fen. Sorry to hear about your struggles. I hope you find a way to get support and to manage the situation so that you get to a better state.
