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metal dawn on 11/6/2006 at 23:11

I am sorry for what has happened and I wish you the best of luck for the future. I can't pretend to understand to know what you are going through, but I'm glad to see that you are taking it so well.

Martek on 12/6/2006 at 00:00

I am so sorry, Dia.

Please accept my condolences and you have my deepest sympathy.

Martek

Scots Taffer on 12/6/2006 at 00:37

Jesus Christ, Dia ... I just read this. I really feel for you. I'm so sorry. You and your husband are in our family's thoughts and prayers. :(

I hope you find some solace in this cold text onscreen.

Lioness Rampant on 12/6/2006 at 02:10

I'm so sorry, Dia. :(

Renegen on 12/6/2006 at 02:22

Wow.. my condolences Dia..

fett on 12/6/2006 at 02:34

I'm so sorry Dia. Eleven years is a long time these days. You're in my thoughts. Not sure what to say - this seems so impersonal, but I hope you find some comfort.

Nicker on 12/6/2006 at 02:39

Dia, please accept my condolences for your sudden and terrible loss.

Starrfall on 12/6/2006 at 02:48

I don't know what else I could possibly say but I'm sorry.

Tocky on 12/6/2006 at 03:15

I wish there were something I could say to help. I know his friends do also but there is so very little. Allow yourself to lean on each other and exchange your memories of him if you can. If not, no one will think less of you. It was obvious how much you loved him.

Dia on 12/6/2006 at 03:17

I wanted to thank all of you from my heart; you've been so very kind and understanding. When I posted this thread I was alone in the house for the second time since Bart died and I needed to 'talk' to someone. Oddly enough, my friends at TTLG came to mind immediately. The worst times so far have been at night and in the morning when I first wake up. I find myself waking in tears; something I've never experienced and which is quite unnerving. I'm quite intimidated by all the details which have yet to be attended to, and not just the memorial service, but everything that needs to be sorted out and taken care of within the next few weeks. But I can't think about all of that right now because it makes me just want to crawl under the bed and never come out again. I know all will turn out for the best eventually so I shouldn't worry, but I've never felt so fragile and vulnerable in my entire life. And Bart always said that I was the strong one. I keep thinking he must have been talking about someone else.

I also keep looking at the third picture of Bart that I posted here. I was taking the picture and he was looking directly at me. He'd just said 'I love you' and for the first time I can see it in his eyes in that picture. I guess I'd never looked that closely before.

Thank you all so very much. I'll be in and out of CC because I really do take heart from all of you. Thank you for sharing my pain, grief, sorrow, and loss.