I am lost now. - by Dia
Sorskogen on 14/6/2006 at 15:59
Dear Dia,
You probably won't even remember me. I gave you a heads up about the lion's den that was CommChat a wee while back. (Not that it matters, since you settled right in and I'm still lurking.)
I came across this thread and my heart broke for you. For whatever the words of a total stranger are worth, I'm so sorry for your loss, and I admire you so incredibly much.
Jakeyboy on 14/6/2006 at 17:53
My deepest condolences to you Dia, on this tragic event. :(
Random_Taffer on 14/6/2006 at 18:13
I'm terribly sorry I didn't read this thread before. I'm so very sorry for your loss. Rest in peace Bart.
Enchantermon on 14/6/2006 at 19:11
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Strong? Me? I don't feel strong at all right now. I'm just sick of crying and feeling that terrible pain; nobody ever told me that grief was an actual physical sensation. It sucks. Bigtime. You know that 'inner child' you're supposed to have inside of you? Well, right now mine is running through the house in a panic; throwing open the doors and windows crying out for her beloved.
But the outer you isn't. That's what makes you strong. Don't sell yourself short; you're doing better than you think. :)
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I had a thought last night that Bart is probably looking for a place to hide, where ever his soul may be, because he knows I am going to give him absolute hell when we meet again. No way that silver tongued devil is going to backpeddle his way out of this one.
See? You've kept your sense of humor. ;)
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Am I blithering yet? Sorry.
No, but even if you were, no apologies necessary. That's what we're here for.
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...or develop a horribly corny penchant for puns. ;)
Hmm, sounds like Bart and I would have gotten along quite well. ;)
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I hope you don't get sick of hearing it. Thanks.
I doubt we will, but I know that I won't. You're very welcome.
Renault on 14/6/2006 at 19:38
Dia, wanted to offer my condolences as well. Hang in there, I know it doesn't seem like it, but it will get better. And thanks for the inspirational messages in the area of organ donation. It's obvious you've touched quite a few people on this topic (including me). A great legacy for Bart.
I don't live all that far from Road America, I'll definitley be thinking of your hubbie and observe a moment of silence the next time I pass by. Take care.
Shadow Creepr on 14/6/2006 at 20:11
Dia,
I can empathise with the pain you're going through. The crying every day, the anger, the awful pain in your heart. You will get to be SO MAD at times because it isn't fair to lose someone you love so dearly. You're having to deal with all the hassle starting from the funeral service and all the paperwork when you really don't want to mess with it and then all the legal matters that are going to carry on for the next year or two.
The heartache is going to last for awhile but I can assure you it will ease over time. Even years from now you will still think of him but by then it won't hurt as bad. Taking it a day at a time like you are is the best way to work through it. You will go through so many more up and down spells but they do lessen. There will be those mornings that you'll wake up blinding numb but you have to make yourself keep going.
I wish I could make your pain go away. All I can say is one day it will. Hang in there.
Lucky Hand of Glory on 14/6/2006 at 20:52
Dia, I am just so very very sorry.
I think the only thing I can say is that as time goes on, you will be able to sleep again and to smile again and to go on in life. I lost the love and joy of my life on March 3rd of this year, and I wanted to kill myself. But just recently, I have found myself thinking about the future and smiling a little and realizing that I have to go on. Some days I do not want to get out of bed and I want to drink myself into a coma, but I know that is not what my love would have wanted, and I know I will see him again one day.
I hope you rely on your faith to get you through this time of darkness and utter dispair. You will come through it. I know it sounds cliche', but just take it one day, one moment, at a time. Keep busy. Thank God for the years you had with your love. Everything happens for a reason. I will say a prayer for you that as each day passes you will become stronger and your pain will become less and less. One day you will be able to think of him not with sorrow but with happiness that he was in your life and that he brought you so much joy.
PS: Dia, my sister was a kidney recipient from a fellow who was in an accident 3 years ago. I cannot put into words what an incredible gift this is.
TheNightTerror on 14/6/2006 at 21:19
I just saw this thread, and I felt sick to my stomach when I realized where the first post was going. I ended up welling up pretty bad once I started reading the rest of the thread, too. :( I'm so sorry Dia, he sounds like the kind of guy anyone would like to have as a friend. It's no small task finding a decent member of the male species, but it looks like you did one hell of a job when you found him. :( If he was happy with you too, you have to be worth the trouble, so take care of yourself. Make sure who he loved makes it through this in one piece in the end, all right?
D'Juhn Keep on 16/6/2006 at 23:45
Ah damn :(
Deepest sympathies Dia
