Volitions Advocate on 3/4/2010 at 14:57
I don't normally post anything personal here but I thought, what the hell, I fell for fett's prank and got all mushy out in the open I might as well share something else.
I woke up this morning and realized that it's April 3rd and I don't know what to do with myself.
2 years ago today one of the greatest friends I've ever had, died from diabetes, and I find that when i think about him intently I dont' really want to do anything except hang out with him and write songs and talk about important things like we always used to.
I'm not doing a sob thread here, I'm not depressed or anything. But I really do miss him. He was the lead singer in my band and probably the most caring and charitable person I've ever known. He was also terrifying if he was coming at you in a game of rugby.
I've got this youtube video of him and my old band playing at my wedding. We didn't want a cheezy wedding band or a DJ so since my wife and I are both pretty music crazy we both put together some things to do at the wedding and to surprise her I got him and the guys to play R-Evolve by 30STM for our "watlz" It was really great and its the last thing I've got on tape of him. He was married July or August of that year and then died about 4 months after my wedding on today's date.
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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v9_9xVKeNko)
I just dont' know what to do with myself today.
I'm sure there are many of you guys with similar stories. I just thought I'd talk about it with somebody.
BrokenArts on 3/4/2010 at 15:22
Keeping his memory alive is a start, and you are doing just that. Listen to some more music, go outside and clear your head, take a walk. Do things you guys used to do. Nice to have that memory on Youtube.
I hear you though, my dad died 15 years ago, 15 fucking years ago. He died on the 31st of March, funeral would of been over Easter weekend, like it is now. I still miss him. A very out going Irish Roman Catholic, knew everybody kinda guy. You could hear his laugh across a crowded room, and you never wanted to piss him off either. I was daddy's girl, last of 7 kids, I could get away with it more than most. Or my parents were just tired by the time they got to me. Last we spoke was on St.Patrick's Day, I did have a green drink this year in his honor. Salud! To the people that we loved and cared about and never will forget.
Mr.Duck on 3/4/2010 at 16:14
*Hugs VA and BA*
massimilianogoi on 3/4/2010 at 16:15
Such a destiniy's joke :( dying after few months he and you were married... Sometime life is just a shit. :tsktsk: I am worry for you, your wife, his friends and his parents. Diabete is a bad disease indeed.
Enchantermon on 3/4/2010 at 16:27
VA, BA, sorry for your losses. :(
Quote Posted by BrokenArts
Keeping his memory alive is a start, and you are doing just that. Listen to some more music, go outside and clear your head, take a walk. Do things you guys used to do. Nice to have that memory on Youtube.
This is good advice. Memories can hurt sometimes, but they can also be wonderful to relive. They can help you to be thankful for the time you had together, rather than being sad for the time you can't have together.
BrokenArts on 3/4/2010 at 17:17
Thanks guys, that means a lot. VA, I hope you find some comfort in posting. I'm sure he'd be pleased to know you still think about him. To know he's not forgotten, he never will be. Thats the greatest legacy of all, to be remembered, I think.
I like to remember the good times, or I'd drive myself crazy only remembering the shit. Sometimes I look up to the heavens when I am out walking, wondering if he can hear me. I'd like to think he can anyway.
I too have a video, its actually my old wedding video, I'm not married to that man anymore, but, I kept the video for one reason. I haven't watched it in years, last time I did, I was sitting there, and at the end, as the video was fading out, I could hear my dad's laughter, I froze and it sent chills down my spine. He has a distinct loud belly of a laugh, I'd love to get that laugh off that tape, I know it could be done. I know my brothers and sisters would be interested in hearing that. Not sure if I should or not, I might. What do you guys think?
And VA not meaning to derail your thread here.
Volitions Advocate on 3/4/2010 at 22:39
actually I might be one of the people who can extract the laugh for you. I'm a Digital Audio major after all.
And it does bring comfort to talk about him. His wife is one of the greatest people I know. And she's tough. She's a So.Cal. girl and I think she's living in Utah for school right now, we see her from time to time because he is buried up here, and she comes to visit as often as she can.
Volitions Advocate on 3/4/2010 at 22:43
Actually here's another recording I have of him... I helped him write this song of his. It's a awful recording done with an RCA mp3 player, I haven't cleaned it up yet, but I planned on recording the song for real and inserting this original recording during a bridge or something so his voice would still be singing his song. But I still need to clean up the sound file
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http://www.taltopia.com/view/14961/Calls-from-the-Abyss)
